Natal chart paintings and poems
Client work // 2023
they see the light
nothing but the light
the sun rays playing
on the tips of the waves
in the ocean of my body
they only see
they will only ever know
about the surface
but the bottom of the sea
is where I am truly from
this is where
my power resides
my wisdom gathers
where the mystic
meets the great mother
in this home
faraway from home
I go
and I find myself
and from the depths
up to the surface I rise
with the widest smile on my face
and eyes that laugh louder
than thousand screaking sea gulls
there’s nothing fake in my smile
because I’ve been through a hell
and yet I am here
laughter is my medicine
but only because it emanates
from the bottom of my belly
I am my wholeness
the light and the dark
I am all of it
and for this
I am blessed beyond measure
lightning strikes
cutting the mountain into two
path opens up
in front of you
into that cave
you must go
carrying a torch
in one hand
little bit of dynamite
in the other
the journey is about
cracking your heart
wide open
for until now
it has been whispering
but whispers
will only make your throat sore
a lion is not supposed to hum
but roar
only when that thunder
follows the lightning
raises from the soles of your feet
travels all the way through
leaving your voice chords
primal
archaic
without restraints
will the crown become light
kite set out into flight
and your heart
set itself free
a mind
dressed in more layers
I can keep count of
did I inherit this?
pick it up on the way?
nobody gave a manual
how to drive a vehicle
this intricate
I’ve spent thousands of hours
researching
investigating
perfecting the process
I know this place
through and through
yet I know
this is not where
my mission ends
this is the realm
where my feet carry me
where my mind can guide me
but I know
there is another one too
where my feet are pointless
my mind just a hindrance
where I will go beyond
become limitless
where time will seize
past, present and future
merge into one
and through the misplacing
re-arranging
chaos and structure
I will find my way
back home
mama look
can’t you see
I am a firecracker
on the quest
of exploring
me
my inner fire
burning so deep
a flame
I can not explain
but the essence of
me
but there is someone
inside of me
the responsible one
carrying a burden
of heaps
all the adult things
thrown in a big basket
sitting on my left shoulder
making my heart
slouch
and the funny thing is
I have become so good at it
almost like my bones
found their way
around
expanding and contracting
without a pause
what if
the pain of it all
melted away
and turned into
simply play
when I feel it
it warms me to my core
tends to my soul
gives permission
for joy to unfold
so simple and pure
the tail of the lion
and a tale of the cosmos
finally meeting
in the colors
of my being
my mission is
turning these sparks into words
my quests into wisdom
to speak from my heart
let that create warmth
radiate it around me
become the brightest sun
they’ve ever seen
jos saisin valita
vain yhden sanan
istuttaa
vain yhden puun
valitsisin oman nimeni
kasvattaisin omat juureni
niin syvälle
että maa lopulta katoaisi
ja vastaan tulisi
taivas
The river flows in you
Wild, untameable
Pure expression of life
You are
The creatrix
The ocean being
The one
Who sets the wave into motion
Dives into emotional depths
The never-ending transformation
Bridging together the divine polarities
The Goddess and the God within
Mutta joskus
Aallot kasvaa liian suuriksi
Imaisee kokonaan sisäänsä
Todellisuus katoaa
Maa jalkojen alla murenee
Ja silloin sielu
Ei enää tiedä
Mistä saisi otteen
In those moments
What can you do
But surrender
Lay yourself in the ground
Return to your animal nature
Nurture and nourish
Lean into the ones who came before you
And pave path to those who come after
A fertile soil
A paradise
Can it really be that blissful?
Or is it all
Just a beautiful illusion?
In the midst of the crashing waves
In the eye of the storm
You came into this world
Became bone and flesh
But didn't bother with skin
Because you knew that would be
Ever-changing
A force that is grounded
Yet deep as the deepest ocean
Armed with conviction
Called by devotion
Shaking the weight of the past off your shoulders
And allowing stillness to arrive
You become you
